ThEsE aRe ThE cOnFeSsiOnS oF a BrOkEn HeaRt..

bruisedanbroken @ 2006-07-14T01:22:00

2006-07-14T05:22:53Z

IM HOME!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

bruisedanbroken @ 2006-06-17T15:03:00

2006-06-17T20:04:47Z

hey ppl!!!! i graduate BCT/AIT on July 12th.. so ill be home sometime around the 15th or the 16th of July!! hooray for me!!!

let the tears fall like rain..(cuz thats what they're doing)

2006-02-08T05:11:31Z

All my bags are packed..
I’m ready to go..
I’m standin’ here outside your door..
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye..
But the dawn is breakin’..
It’s early morn..
The taxi’s waitin’..
He’s blowin’ his horn..
Already I’m so lonesome..
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Ev’ry place I go, I’ll think of you
Ev’ry song I sing, I’ll sing for you
When I come back, I’ll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
I’ll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won’t have to leave alone
About the times, I won’t have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

blahh

2006-02-08T05:09:11Z

yeah.. so.. i completely hate the feeling that im going to be alone..yet again.. on valentines day... and on top of that.. ill be leaving on valentines day.. i hate it... it FuCkiNg sucks.

:: sighs ::

this is like.. the 3rd year that i've been alone on valentines day.. it sucks being alone... but.. i guess it sucks especially on valentines day.. y'know... not having that "special someone" to spend the day with...

:: tear ::

it just sucks..

i need a valentine...

this is it folks...

2006-01-30T14:39:38Z

February 15th... i leave for Basic.. hoorah for me..

bruisedanbroken @ 2006-01-29T23:25:00

2006-01-30T04:59:39Z

soo.. i had drill this past weekend.. and it kicked some major ass lol.. even though i REALLY didnt wana be there lol.. Friday- Went to taunton to get on the bus.. seeing how we're no longer able to drive our POV's ( personally owned vehicle). that sucked. met a bunch of people who were new to my platoon.. the bus ride was about 45 minutes.. but it was quite fun. we got on base.. and the MP's were being a HuGe pain in the ass lol. annnnyyyyways.. we got to the chow hall and met up with out Platoons. my Sgt was giving me shit because i didnt ship out on January 18th like i was supposed to.. so he was raising all hell towards me passing my PT test.. soo.. after everyone got there.. we headed out to get our gortex (winter jackets) then we went and got our linen.. after that we headed back to the barrocks.. that was funny.. we threw our stuff onto our beds.. then headed towards the day room to have platoon time.. we were in there for about an hour.. just talking about what was in store for us during the weekend. after that we headed back to our rooms.. and went to sleep. Saturday we Woke up at 5am.. then headed out for company formation. after that we headed out to take our PT test.. in which... I PASSED..!!!! Hoo-Ah!!!!!!! :) i was actually quite happy with myself.. the sooner i ship out.. the sooner ill get home.. and the sooner i can move my ass to NC. :o) after our PT test.. we went to chow.. then we headed back into the barrocks to get into our uniforms.. but it wasnt just our uniforms lol.. see.. we had water survival training.. so.. we had our bathing suits on.. PLUS our PT uniforms on.. PLUS an X-Tra Shirt.. PLUS our BDU's lol.. oh god.. it was hilarious.. we got to the pool.. and we had to take off our dry uniforms.. and put on soaking wet ones.. but see.. we werent issued the correct size uniform.. so.. my uniform was amazingly HUGE on me.. lol.. it was dragging behind me.. and the sleeves on it.. holy shit.. if you thought i was a midget before.. lol.. if you had seen me.. you would've laughed your friggin asses off.. haha.. but yeah.. so.. we got into the pool.. and had to swim 50 meters. holy shit.. i thought i was going to drown.. lol.. and my sgts.. they were so mean to me.. see.. these sgts.. i know them on a personal note.. i dont just talk to them at drill.. i also keep in touch with them outside of drill.. so.. they were all acting like they were going to help me.. then pulling away.. while laughing at me.. it was so mean.. yet so incredibly funny. then.. they fucking gave us a dummy M-16.. and made us swim with it.. i thought i was gona fuckin drown.. AGAIN.. lol.. by that time my arms were like.. numb.. wow.. as much fun as i had.. i dont think i will EVER do that again :) so.. after the whole pool thing.. we went back to the barrocks.. and had more platoon time.. we got sent back to our rooms at about 8:30ish.. and i fell asleep around 10. Today we woke up at 5am again for platoon PT. that was quite fun. even though we did muscle failure lol.. it hurt like a biotch.. but it was still fun lol.. im insane ;) today was basically our easy day.. hehe.. we were dismissed at about 12:30.. and i got home around 4ish.. so yeah.. that was my weekend.. i met some amazing people.. and i met a few ppl who i just wanted to beat the shit out of lol.. but.. it was still fun :)

ohhh!! and tomorrow... i find out my NEW ship date :)

as soon as i find out.. it'll be POSTED!

bruisedanbroken @ 2006-01-13T14:29:00

2006-01-13T19:40:54Z

its been a while since i've last done an actual post.. hmm.. lets see.. i left for north carolina on the 2nd of January.. after spending like.. 2 1/2 weeks with my Kimmy.. here in MASS that was alot of fun.. i miss her something terrible.. ahh.. but being in north carolina was so amazing.. i got to see Milt.. :)

the car ride down wasnt bad at all.. it was actually quite fun lol.. we ended up staying in Jersey.. wow.. that sucked lol.. the hotel that we were in sucked major ass.. hehe.. the shower seemed like it took forever to heat up lol.. but gettin the shower to actually work was the funny part.. i thought i was gona pull it out of the wall just to turn it on.. hehe.. once we hit north carolina it seemed like the trip was never ending.. mainly because i was itching to see my boy :) but we finally got there.. and it seemed incredibly awkward wen i first saw milt.. only because of some shit that happened.. that i DO regret.. but.. lets move on shall we.?

we played LOTS of board games while i was there lol.. as well as watched tons of movies.. i did indeed get my chicken tenders with ranch sauce.. that was amazing.. too bad they dont have a Zeekos here.. mmm.. Zeekos is good ;)

we also went bowling.. haha.. that was amazing.. emily is so adorable.. shes only 2.. and she bowled a better score than some of us lol..

the day i left was hard.. i didnt wana let go of kimmy when we were hugging good bye.. :[ but.. eventually i did.. and then laura and i headed over to Circuit City to say good bye to milt and ian.. that was hard as well.. i went in.. and immediately went over to milt and gave him a hug.. we talked for a minute.. then he went out back to get ian.. ian took a little while to come out.. but eventually he did.. he and i went out to have a cigarette and say our goodbyes.. we went back in.. and then milt came out with me.. he and i talked.. i gave him a big hug.. and a kiss.. then i left.. in tears :(

i miss them all so very much.. and i hope i get the chance to see those 3 again.. before i leave for basic.. if not.. then ill be going about 10 months without seeing them.. and i dont think i can handle that... its almost impossible ..

but.. anyways.. the car ride back wasnt that bad.. it was actually fun.. except getting lost in jersey.. but.. lets not get into that.. we finally hit massachusetts at about 4am.. and i got in at about 5ish..

all in all.. i had an amazing time being with kimmy ian an milt<3

i miss you!

me... me... and more... ME!

2006-01-09T16:30:26Z

51 things u dont know about me

1. What is your middle name:
Jo

2. How big is ur bed?
queen

3. What are you listening to right now?
i have "somewhere out there" stuck in my head... does that count?

4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number?
cell:61 home:23

5. What was the last thing you ate?
uhm.. chocolate? lol

6. Last person you hugged?
Milt

7. How is the weather right now?
sunny and nice

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Milt... giving me directions on how to get back to kims house.. seeing how i got lost lol

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes

10. Favorite type of Food?
i dont have just one

11. Do you want children?
yeah

12.Ever Skinny Dipped?
nope

13. Ever done something you regret?
yeah

14. Hair color?
dark brown

15. eye color?
brown

16. Do you wear contacts?
nope

17. Favorite holiday?
Valentines Day

18. Favorite Season?
summer

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
yeah

20. Last Movie you Watched?
hmm... im not sure.. i've watched alot of movies since ive been in NC lol

29. What books are you reading?
not reading anything right now.. because i dont have time to read

30. Piercings?
2 in each ear.. belly button

31. Favorite movie?
hmm.. i have one too many.. but i do love the boondock saints

32. Favorite college football Team?
dont have one

33. What were you doing before filling this out?
talkin to kimmy

34. Any pets?
2 cats.. a bunny.. and a hampster

35. AIM?
sexish0rty2005

37. Dogs or cat?
cats

38. Favorite Flower?
roses

39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?
yeah lol

40. Have you ever loved someone?
thought i did...

41. Who would you like to see right now?
Milton.. and my mommy

42. Are you still friends with your ex?
some what

43. Have you ever fired a gun?
a paintball gun lol

44. Do you like to travel by plane?
its alright

45. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Righty

46. If you could be with someone right now who would it be?
Milton

47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2

48. Are you missing someone?
yeah :(

49. Do you have a tattoo?
i have a tiger cub on my right shoulder.. and a sun/moon tribal design on my lower back

50. Do you still watch cartoons on saturday mornings?
no lol

51. Are you hiding something from someone?
not that i know of

bruisedanbroken @ 2006-01-05T23:19:00

2006-01-06T04:22:57Z

1) Are you currently in a relationship or single?
im single.. but i have someone.. its kind of confusing..

2) Are you happy with where you are?
yes i am!

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
yes

4) Have you ever cheated on someone?
yes..

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
hell no

6) Would you ever take someone back, if they cheated on you?
depends..

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person or have you been married?
yes i have talked about it.. and no i have never been married

8) Do you want children?
yes i do.. but not right now.. lol.. in the future

9) If yes how many?
1 or 2

10) Would you consider adoption?
i atleast want one of my own.. but yes.. i would consider adoption

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool unique way of showing you?
talking to me..

12) Do you enjoy a chase?
No

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating someone?
No

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
yes i do

15) Are you romantic?
yes

16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
both yes and no

17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object where would it be?
on the beach

18) buddies - good or bad?
it can be good.. and bad

19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
yes

20) Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know or not?
yes i do.. and if he doesnt know.. then he is retarted lol..

bruisedanbroken @ 2006-01-05T21:16:00

2006-01-06T02:21:24Z

it sucks... it sucks hardcore...

i've finally found the perfect guy.. he's everything and more.. he's what i need.. the only thing fucking it up.. is the fact that we live over 800 miles away from each other.

he's amazing.. im falling absolutley head over heels in love with him.. but.. once again.. i live over 800 miles away from him.

even though he and i arent dating.. my claddagh ring is flipped.. so the heart is facing in.. instead of out..

anyways.. im gona go watch the wedding crashers with kimmah ian and laura..

i guess ill write more later..

bruisedanbroken @ 2005-12-31T13:29:00

2005-12-31T18:32:39Z

ok this is a survey of all the things youve done in 2005. fill in ur answers then repost to keep it going

[P E O P L E]
1. Best friends? Kimmy, Laura, CC, Dawn, Ian and Ryan
2. Lost any friends? Yeah
3. Gained any friends? A Few
4. Met a new good friend? Yes

[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? Nope
2. Moved? No
3. New school? Nope.. i graduated though :)
4. How many times on an airplane? 2
1.Have you changed?: yes
2. New look?: sort of
3. Any new addictions: yes
4. Biggest conflict this year?: Miltary stuff.. not a bad thing though..
5. Most depressed time this year?: beginning of year.. it sucked hardkore..

[L O V E]
1. Did you fall in love? Yes
2. Did you get heartbroken? Yes
3. Who was your summer love/crush? i didnt have one

[S E A S O N S]
1. Favorite Season? summer
2. Least favorite season? winter
3. Good birthday? Nope... even though i bought myself a car... yeah biotch!

[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]

Snuck out: nope.. lol.. i know.. i suck

Met a person who will change your life: Yes

Kept your resolution: Nope lol

Had a first something: nope lol

Had a crush: yesh'um

Liked someone who didn't like you: yeah :(

Lost a family member: No.. thank god

Got bad grades: yesh.. but i had a reason

Got suspended: Nope

Got a myspace: nope.. ive had one for more than a year lmao..

Done something you totally regret: yeah

Changed your view on things: yeah

fill'er out and repost!

* SiGh *

2005-12-17T06:54:51Z

im in one of those.... moods.. again.. and i hate it..

its like.. one of those "depressed" moods.. but.. im not really.. depressed... just sad..

Extremely sad.

i feel like curling up into a ball.. and just crying myself to sleep....

and it sucks.

there are so many things missing from my life right now... and i cant stand it!

='(

im cold...

im tired...

and im lonely :(

yay for sunday!!!!!!

2005-12-16T20:11:38Z

So...

wednesday night i slept over krista and jasons house.. seeing how i had to babysit Jayla yesterday and today..

i had so much fun.. even though i couldnt keep her happy yesterday :(

i felt so bad.. all she did was cry.. i tried feeding her.. i held her.. i put her in her little swing thingy.. but.. nothing i did worked :(

at like.. 12:30 krista came home.. and we headed out for a little while.. we went to dimitris to pick up the stroller.. then we went to weymouth to pick up jaylas birth certificate.. then we headed over to the braintree mall because Ian told me that there was something at White Hall jewelers that he needed me to pick up.. so.. we get to whitehall.. and the lady asks for my ID.. then she hands me a piece of paper with some writing on it.. and it was a thank you note from ian for helping him out with kimmys present.. then the lady hands me a box.. and inside of it were a pair of BEAUTIFUL earrings :).. i was so shocked that he got me them.. i almost cried lol.. it was so sweet. i have the most amazing friends any girl could EVER ask for.. so.. after that.. i got a phone call from kimmy.. asking me what i wanted for christmas.. cuz milt wanted to know.. and i told her that i didnt know.. well.. she thought of something.. told milt.. and now im sitting here clueless as to what it is... well.. not exactly clueless.. i have a little idea on what it might be.. but im not positive.. and im not going to get my hopes up.. cuz.. that would suck if it isnt what i think it is.. but anyways...

my kimmy will be here sunday... and im so friggin excited... then.. i think murphy will be here on the 29th.. im not exactly sure.. but alls i know is that when he and kimmy leave.. im going too!!!!! im not sure on how long i will be there for.. but alls i know is that im going.. and im SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!! cuz i miss *him* like crazy :(

bruisedanbroken @ 2005-12-13T01:19:00

2005-12-13T06:19:30Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last week I gave rugbyho124 a kidney (1000 points). Last Tuesday I bought porn for truegoober (10 points). Last Saturday I pulled littleboylover's hair (-5 points). Last Sunday on a flight to Pakistan, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). Last month I donated bone marrow to carolinagurl143 in a life-saving procedure (300 points).

Overall, I've been nice (1265 points). For Christmas I deserve a new dolly!

Sincerely,
bruisedanbroken

i heart my heather

2005-12-12T07:51:39Z

SeXiSh0rTy2005: my pudding is gone
StarShineAmator: awww
StarShineAmator: see? after a while it just goes away....
StarShineAmator: its very sad
SeXiSh0rTy2005: :(
SeXiSh0rTy2005: ;(
StarShineAmator: :(
SeXiSh0rTy2005: you know how willy wonka makes the ever lasting gobstopper?
StarShineAmator: mhmm lol
SeXiSh0rTy2005: well.. he should make everlasting pudding.. and chocolate ice cream
SeXiSh0rTy2005: so your bowl is never empty
StarShineAmator: mmm
StarShineAmator: lol
StarShineAmator: we'd get so fat
SeXiSh0rTy2005: :)
SeXiSh0rTy2005: it'd be great though
StarShineAmator: hahaha yes

Will:Ha ha she's a military chick she wont have nothin to do with a mook like me
Will: But she seems pretty cool
StarShineAmator: we'll see
StarShineAmator: :)
SeXiSh0rTy2005: lol
SeXiSh0rTy2005: a mook?
SeXiSh0rTy2005: lmao
SeXiSh0rTy2005: nice
StarShineAmator: who nice
StarShineAmator: knows*
StarShineAmator: how that ended up as nice, i couldn't tell ya lol
SeXiSh0rTy2005: lol
SeXiSh0rTy2005: haha mook..
SeXiSh0rTy2005: thats a funny word
StarShineAmator: lol

hahah.. this ... was indeed a fun night :)

bruisedanbroken @ 2005-12-12T02:46:00

2005-12-12T07:46:08Z

soo.. i found out im not leaving for basic training in january..

because i suck at Physical Training.. i am now being held back until May..

so yes folks.. im not shipping out until May-ish...

which means i have lots more time to spend with my friends.!

YAY

bruisedanbroken @ 2005-12-06T00:09:00

2005-12-06T05:33:11Z

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true ...
All I want for Christmas
Is you ...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you ...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You ...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one
I really need - won't you please
Bring my baby to me ...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to se baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas
Is you ...

All I want for Christmas
Is you baby
Is you baby

its less than a month away until im in NC!! woo hoo!! <---*excited*---> lol.. i can't wait!

and then.. like.. a week later.. i leave for basic training :'( no fair.. lol.. hopefully i'll have people that will write to me :)

i know my kimmy will.. but i hope other people will love me enough to write to me.. but.. thats only me hoping.. doubt it will happen... and.. i wont know my address until i get there.. so.. if i dont have your address.. then.. dont be expecting me to write to you.. because it wont happen..

:)

2005-11-27T04:17:24Z

Is there a word you'd like to say?
even in this old-fashioned way,
go make your move girl, I'm not coming home.

Would things have changed if I could have stayed?
would you have loved me either way?
dressed in the blues day to day with my collar up.

Decision sits so make it quick,
a breath inhaled from an air so sick,
I curse the day that I heard of the web you've spun.
You had to hold 'til bleeding.

(Hey, hey)
If it was up to me, I would have figured you out,
way before the year clocked out, oh I hope you're waiting.

(Hey, hey)
If it was up to me,
I would have never walked out
so until the sun burns out,
oh I hope you're waiting.

Would we have lived as a child would care
with this vial to drink, I dare.
(Oh where have you been, oh where have you been.)
Only to cry all alone with your taste and tongue.
(Oh where have you been, if it hurts to be forgiving, bye.)

Should we try this again with hope?
(Bye, bye)
Or is it lost, give up the ghost?
And should I die all alone as I knew I would.
(Then burn in hell young sinner.)

(Hey, hey, come on!)
If it was up to me, I would have figured you out,
way before the year clocked out, oh I hope you're waiting,
oh I hope your waiting.

Listen well, will you marry me? (Not now boy)
and are you well in the suffering? (You've been)
the most gracious of hosts
you may be invited girl, but you're not coming in

Listen well, will you marry me? (Not now, boy)
And are you well in the suffering? (You've been)
The most gracious of hosts,
I may be invited girl, but I'm not coming in

(Hey, Hey)
If it was up to me, (you had your hopes)
I would have figured you out,
(Oh where have you been, oh where have you been.)
way before the year clocked out, oh I hope you're waiting.

(Hey, hey)
If it was up to me, (give up the ghost)
I would have never walked out
(Oh where have you been, oh where have you been.)
so until the sun burns out,
(Oh where have you been, if it hurts to be forgiving.)
oh I hope you're waiting.

Listen well, will you marry me? (Not now, boy)
And are you well in the suffering? (You've been)
The most gracious of hosts,
you may be invited girl, but you're not coming in

Listen well, will you marry me? (Not now, boy)
And are you well in the suffering? (you've been)
The most gracious of hosts,
I may be invited girl, but I'm not coming in

Listen well, will you marry me? (Not now, boy)
And are you well in the suffering? (you've been)
The most gracious of hosts,
you may be invited girl, but you're not coming in

Listen well, will you marry me? (Not, now boy)
And are you well in the suffering? (You've been)
The most gracious of hosts,
I may be invited girl, but I'm not coming in
and you're not coming in

:: sighs ::

2005-11-26T05:44:59Z

* I wish i could explain.. what i see in your eyes.. and how the sound of your voice.. gives me butterflies *

** If kisses were raindrops.. I'd send you showers.. If hugs were minutes.. I'd send you hours.. If smiles were an ocean.. I'd send you the sea.. And if love was a person.. I'd send u me **

*** Love.. is when you miss him even before he leaves.. when you could listen to him talk all night.. and never get tired of hearing his voice.. when the sound of his name.. sends chills down your spine.. and when you see his smile.. the second you close your eyes ***

* Sometimes.. i wish i could fast-forward.. just to see if its all worth it in the end *

* Honestly.. If you're not willing to sound s t u p i d.. then you dont deserve to be in love *

.·´º·.* y0u kn0 tha feelin y0u get, wen y0u *.·º´·.
g0 a lil t0o high 0n a swing
.·´º·.* 0r y0u hit a bump in thE r0ad an *.·º´·.
y0u're tummy kinda flips
.·´º·.* thats h0w i feel wen i see y0u *.·º´·.

i need a man who wont cramp my style.. someone who likes to go crazee.. but not to wild.. i want a man who looks OH so FiNE and he wont be afraid to say
.·´º·.* HeLL yEa ShEs MiNe *.·º´·.
i want a man who wont show off infront of his crew.. but will give me kisses an say
[ - _«--babii i LoVe YoU--»_ - ]

* If two hearts are meant to be...no matter how long it takes..how far it'll go.. how tough it seems.. fate will bring them back ToGeThEr.. to share a life thats meant to be FoReVeR *

You came into my life... As if you were sent from heaven.. Now i think of you..
t w e n t y - f o u r / s e v e n

I love the whole
*Single*Party*Fun Thing*
but sometimes i wouldnt mind the whole
*Lovin*Holdin hands*His girl thing*

hooah!

2005-11-21T06:10:44Z

so.. this past weekend was my 1st weekend back to drill.. i've been on medical for the past year an a half.. and to be back.. felt awesome.. we got to do pugels ( the big q-tip looking like sticks that they use on American Gladiators) yeah.. those!.. they were so fucking kick ass!! hah.. i got to beat the shit out of some chick in my platoon whom i could NOT stand.. i learned hand to hand combat.. as well as bayonett training.. that was kickass too.. (( so dont fuck with me!!)) hah.. yeah right.. me.. kick someones ass??? ... only if you give me a pugel stick.. then.. ITS GO TIME! lmao.. i had all the sgts laughing.. they thought it was awesome.. only because of how badly i wanted to beat the shit outa this chick.. and i actually got the chance to... and.. i couldnt get in trouble.. WooP w00p... how great is that??? lol

i found out that i had a PT test.. in which i basically passed.. but barely.. lol

females only have to do as followed

Push- Ups: 3
Sit-Ups: 18
1 mile run: 10min 30sec

and i did as followed

Push-Ups: 23.. or 24.. cant remember
Sit-Ups:.. like.. 10 or so..
1 mile run: 10min 15sec

now.. i know that doesnt seem all that great..

but to me.. i think its fucking kick ass... only because i havent worked out or anything in well over a year.. due to the fact that i was on medical.. and i had an injury..

so.. i really only need to work on my situps.. which isnt that bad.. and i have to work on my running.. just to get my hip back up to strength.. but that should'nt be a problem..

in even better news i found out that a huge amount of people in which i worked with at the Marshfield Fair.. and at Gillette stadium were at drill.. ohh.. man.. it felt so good to see Sgt. DuBuc.. (( MmmMmm Sticky )) loooong ass story... dont ask.. lol.. hes so awesome.. he's the kind of person that will go out of his way.. to make sure that your day is awesome.. he ALWAYS has a smile on his face.. hes an amazing Sgt. i only wish that i was in his platoon.. im not saying that i hate the platoon im in.. i adore it.. but.. i think it'd be kickass if i was in Sgt. DuBuc's platoon.. only because of the hell we'd create lol.. and i wouldnt get punished for it.. because i'd be doing it with a Sgt.. WooP w00p.. lol i also saw Sgt. Campell.. Sgt. Frizzel... Sgt. Dupuis... oh god.. too many freaking people.. man.. it was so awesome..

i cant even begin to describe how much pain i am in right now though lol....

it hurts to walk.. lie down.. and even drive.. lmao.. thats sad..

but.. it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO worth it :)

i cant wait 'til next months drill.. its gona be so fucking kickass..

hooray for today!

2005-11-15T06:04:18Z

i am so freaking excited..

words cant even begin to explain.. lol

soo.. today 11/15/2005

i will be an auntie!!! woooooo!! i cant wait.. i am going to spoil this child like crazy!!!!

krista.. have no worries.. everything will go perfectly fine.. and you will be a GREAT mommy!!

and jason... big bro.. wow.. who would have thought that you would be a daddy lol.. i know i wouldnt.. but.. its time.. and i know you will be a great father!! have no worries :) you will treat your daughter so much better than dad has ever treated us..!! Jayla is going to be so lucky to have you as her father :)

you are the worlds greatest brother..!!

and i wish you and krista all of the happiness in the world.

i love you both

soo... with that said its now time for me to sleep.. :)

(( look for pictures .. because there will be plenty of them up on my myspace ))

did 'em cuz kimmy told me 2

2005-11-13T15:50:17Z

If you were on South Park, what would you look like and who would your friends be? (for girls) by vexedfusion

Username

You are a WHORE!

Dun dun dun, this is you...

Percentage of people who like this character..: 33%

The Jew

senor_tj

The Fat One

sparkynekka

The Lover

carolinagurl143

The Poor One

rugbyho124

The Gay Teacher

ssc4lyfe52287

Kyle's Bitchy Mom

shannynegans

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How much do your LJ friends love you? by ladybugadria
username
age
choose one
loves you lots	fairiesofblue19
thinks of you as their best friend	rugbyho124
pretends to like you	nangle
wants to move your relationship to the next level	sweetnlonely
wants you in bed	jiwhitley
Loves your quirkiness	truegoober
desperately loves to read your journal	marysnthecloset
Loves you more than you know	carolinagurl143
thinks you are stange	purple_fairy407

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True Future Careers of Your Friends by dannygrl0129
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Are you...?
Color of your parachute?
Hooker?	littleboylover
Psychotic Killer?	fairiesofblue19
Sex Therapist?	senor_tj
Famous Rock Star?	carolinagurl143
Porn Star?	goddamnitleeroy
Kindergarten Teacher?	sparkynekka
Leader of The Free World?	sekkusuichi
Chief of Police?	rugbyho124
Nun?	shannynegans

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my life.

2005-11-07T21:23:22Z

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.3
Mind:	4.5
Body:	6.1
Spirit:	4.2
Friends/Family:	4.6
Love:	3.3
Finance:	5.9
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tear

2005-11-07T20:03:00Z

Another day is going by..
I'm thinking about you all the time..
But you're out there..
And I'm here waiting...

And I wrote this letter in my head..
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid..
But now you're gone..
And I can't think straight...

This could be the one last chance...
To make you understand..

I'd do anything...
Just to hold you in my arms...
To try to make you laugh...
Some how I can't put you in the past..
I'd do anything..
Just to fall asleep with you..
Will you remember me?..
'Cuz I know..
I won't forget you...

so.. this is my 1st full day back home... and i hate it...

i miss north carolina so much..

you know the saying " home is where the heart is " ?

well.. its not true in this situation..

my home is in massachusetts..

and my heart is in north carolina...

this fucking sucks so much..

i met a boy while i was there... and hes such a fucking sweetheart... it was so much fun just cuddling and talking..
whenever i was with him.. we were up until atleast 5am just talking about absolutley nothing.. it was great.

but now.. i dont know when im going to see him again.. because of all the military bullshit..

im gona try to get stationed in north carolina so i can be closer to everyone that lives down there.

i hope it works..

thatd be one of the greatest things ever.

but.. im gona go before i start to cry...

bye.

TaG You'Re it!

2005-11-07T17:13:55Z

list 10 things that make you happy:
1. my wifey
2. my dork
3. spiderman
4. my friends
5. NC
6. tattoos
7. Sleeping
8. Family Guy
9. music
10. my cell phone

and tag 5 others:

Carolinagurl143, truegoober, ericay1987, buttaflykissez2, nangle